“This state is elevating as the hurt turns into hating…”

 

 

Since I was not blessed with overwhelming beauty of countenance, I’m forced to believe serpents slithered into my nursery and licked my ears clean:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cassandra

Heaven knows that’s why I drink.

It dulls the voices.

 

 

Even as a very young man, I saw the chips falling.

So much so, that – despite being bright, well-spoken and extremely creative – I vociferously pursued a career with the US Federal government.

I wanted to make the nation better or, at the very least, stem the bleeding.

[Such is the exuberance of youth.]

I eventually found myself in the INS.

Then, as it changed, in Homeland Security.

What I failed to see – in my youthful hubris – was just how badly the cancer had metastasized.

 

 

Needless to say, it wasn’t long before my personal ethics signed my [professional] death warrant.

Not only did my credo get me ousted but it also prevented me from working the election polls [as only registered Democrats or Republicans can work them, in my home state].

Now, if I had to choose one thing – above all others – that alienates me from so many, it’s my nigh on pathological aversion to dichotomous thinking.

 

 

Which brings me to the following:

A preponderance of men in the ‘sphere advocate “learning a trade”, making use of the “underground economy” or both.

As it would take me hours to search through them all, here’s just a smattering:

Perks of being a “prole”

http://illusionofsanity.com/blog/?p=1009

http://illusionofsanity.com/blog/?p=939

http://stagedreality.wordpress.com/2013/07/20/what-i-learned-in-a-week-at-the-trade/

 

 

Permit me to be clear, I’m not saying the above is bad advice, per se.

What I am saying is one must understand this:

Should you choose that path, you will alter no greater course.

You will affect no significant change.

You will keep the machinery running while the machinery runs you.

You will be permitted to continue; you will survive.

But you will be, in effect, a Morlock:

Morlocks are a fictional species created by H. G. Wells for his 1895 novel, The Time Machine. They dwell underground in the English countryside of 802,701 AD in a troglodyte civilization, maintaining ancient machines that they may or may not remember how to build. Their only access to the surface world is through a series of well structures that dot the countryside of future England.

Morlocks are humanoid creatures, said to have descended from humans, but by the 8,028th century have evolved into a completely different species, said to be better suited to their subterranean habitat. They are described as “ape-like”, with little or no clothing, large eyes and grey fur covering their bodies. As a result of living underground, they have little or no melanin to protect their skin, and so have become extremely sensitive to light.

 

Of course, the servants of the Leviathan are quite easily perceived as the Eloi:

By the year AD 802,701, humanity has evolved into two separate species: the Eloi and the Morlocks. The Eloi are the childlike, frail group, living a banal life of ease on the surface of the earth, while the Morlocks live underground, tending machinery and providing food, clothing and infrastructure for the Eloi. Each class evolved and degenerated from humans.

The main difference from their earlier ruler-worker state is that, while the Morlocks continue to support the world’s infrastructure and serve the Eloi, the Eloi have undergone significant physical and mental deterioration. Having solved all problems that required strength, intelligence, or virtue, they have slowly become dissolute and naive. They are described as being smaller than modern humans, having shoulder-length curly hair, chins that ran to a point, large eyes, small ears, and small mouths with bright red thin lips. They are of sub-human intelligence, though apparently intelligent enough to speak, as they have a primitive language.

 

Now, I won’t ruin the story for those of you that have yet to read the novel, but the question of which is the Alpha and which is the Omega is not a puzzle easily solved.

Much like the paradox I’ve always believed Mankind to be, it is deeply simple yet remarkably complex.

Regardless, the tragedy remains:

Both groups left their humanity in their distant past.

 

 

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35 Responses to ““This state is elevating as the hurt turns into hating…””

  1. Have you ever seen this movie?

    http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0268695/

    That’s the first thing this post brought to mind.

  2. docillusion Says:

    Learning a craft and working outdoors to build things and produce hardly makes one an underground troll. You will find that men who work blue collar jobs surrounded by other men are the happiest people you will ever meet. We get to horseplay, shove each other around, pull pranks and practical jokes on each other, use offensive language and do whatever we want. No thought police on a jobsite.

    I do not agree with your perspective.

    • Nor does it make you a vapid, childlike hedonist waiting to be eaten.

      I’m speaking in metaphor addressing the dangers of dichotomous thinking and surrendering one’s place in the complexity that is human society.

      Over drinks, I’ll clarify.

      • docillusion Says:

        I hope so. Because from reading the post you seem to imply that by taking the route of learning practical skills and using them, we are dropping out of the big picture and surrendering ourselves to slavery.

      • I am implying that’s a serious possibility.

        I am advocating that one carefully consider one’s choices and remain well-roundedly human, at all cost.

      • Doc – perhaps he meant that some people may read what you say and define themselves solely by the manual labor they perform.

        What I see is that both the Morloch and Eloi deal in excess.

        Excess thinking makes for a soft body.

        Excess labor makes for a soft mind.

        You need both.

        For example – looking at you – not only do you have a blue collar job that requires you be physically active and in shape – but you also write a blog. You muse about the malaise that affects the Western world and how you might solve it. You try to meet up with the great minds of the manosphere to have a good time and expand minds.

        In the manosphere – you see how many just want to improve their game. It’s all about getting laid – like many in Roosh V forum. You see beyond that – self improvement is for mind, body, and soul. Work out. Get a job. Get standards. Get a girlfriend. Or three.

        The danger of dichotomous thinking Is lurching to an extreme – one position to the neglect of all else.

        As for one final point – as I write this – I notice a common theme in many societies from history. A focus on balance.

        A duality. Men are not better than women. Women are not better than men. They compliment each other. Without light you cannot have dark. Yin and Yang. Strike a balance. A balanced temperament. Moderation in all things including moderation. In military schools I’ve been to, the motto has always been something to do with “Mind, Body, Soul.”

        That I believe, is what Ace is trying to go for.

    • Doc,

      I chose this post of yours intentionally:

      http://illusionofsanity.com/blog/?p=1009

      “I’m already feeling [like] a predator again, but I have a long way to go. As I said to Mistress last night, a predator is always one meal away from starvation. I’m not there yet. Give me a few weeks.”

      In the novel:

      The Morlocks’ main source of food is the Eloi, another race descended from humans that lives above ground. The Morlocks treat the Eloi as cattle.

  3. I think your assessment is fair to the extent of the knowledge you have to work with or if you’re viewing my job as the main identification of who I am.

    I wouldn’t identify myself as such.

    I think you have to keep in mind that, two or three weeks before I switched careers, I also started attending Latin Mass where before I would have called myself a non-practicing non-denominational protestant.

    My job is a tool to get me what I need to achieve my goals – a skill that makes good money to provide for myself and a possible family. I hope to bump up in pay and skills quickly enough that, before any massive re-ordering of society comes around, myself and any woman I call my own will be debt free and own some land. No chains and a bit of freedom. The skills will make me valuable enough not to outright kill, possibly employ, or simply make my own way if we have a drastic collapse. In the meantime the job provides me joy, satisfaction, and challenges me, while giving me the freedom to get out of the doomed city of Chicago.

    I can work long hours, but I start getting diminished returns after 60ish a week. I don’t know if I could do the 80 that Dr does for more than two weeks. Maybe 3 if I had a woman at home to cook and keep house. Don’t know as my experience on my own stamina right now is all as a bachelor.

    • Leap,

      I sincerely appreciate your thoughtful reply.

      As I said above, I am not impugning such a choice.

      It’s absolutely valid.

      But what I am saying is that, while you will not be chained in the sense the ‘sphere defines it:

      Your position will afford you no capacity to change anything at a governmental/societal level.

      By modern homesteading, you are locking yourself to the choices made by those that stay in the Leviathan’s power structure.

      [Unless, of course, you choose to revolt/break the law of whatever state/nation you call home.]

      Again, this is no attack.

      I opened by saying I tried to change things and failed.

      I am merely doing as I always do [my mission]:

      Shedding light on Truth, as awful as it may be.

      And it is.

      No doubt.

      • Ah ok, I see what you mean.

        And no, I in no way delude myself that I will ever change the system. I accept I might change a small community depending on what resources, skills, leadership ability, etc I gain.

        But I worked in theatre for 6 years, plus 4 of college. That was going to be my way to ‘change the world’ through art and performance. Start my own company and pick the right plays.

        When I saw how Naive I’d been….

        Well, the world can deal with it’s own problems. I’d help it if I thought I could, but doing so is no longer my priority.

        Since the changes, I’ve never been more satisfied or found as much joy in my life as I currently do.

    • Leap,

      I couldn’t agree more with your words here:

      “Well, the world can deal with it’s own problems. I’d help it if I thought I could, but doing so is no longer my priority.

      Since the changes, I’ve never been more satisfied or found as much joy in my life as I currently do.”

      I’ve been considering a post that says much the same.

      • The ironic part is that I think I’ll have a much higher ability to make real change should I ever perceive an opportunity. And, honestly, with the way Catholicism is set up I’ll likely have opportunities within the Church, though possibly never have any outside of that.

        I don’t know the particulars of your own situation, but it seems that a man giving up his co-dependent, ‘white knight fantasies’ towards society that he’s in a better position to help it as long as he doesn’t jump into a hedonistic lifestyle.

      • “And, honestly, with the way Catholicism is set up I’ll likely have opportunities within the Church, though possibly never have any outside of that.”

        Excellent!

        That was part of my point.

        You are NOT divorcing yourself from society.

        Perhaps you are choosing a niche [at worst, and I use worst very loosely] but you are working in a larger structure to affect a larger change.

        God does not ask us to solve all the ills of the world.

        But He commands us to do what we can.

        “…it seems that a man giving up his co-dependent, ‘white knight fantasies’ towards society that he’s in a better position to help it as long as he doesn’t jump into a hedonistic lifestyle.”

        Again, my point.

        You are avoiding the trap of dichotomous thinking.

        Well done.

        Truly.

      • My thoughts exactly.

        As usual, seems like our communication styles are saying the same thing in different ways. Hah.

  4. “There is a saying: ‘Hell is other people.’ You will find that they are quite wrong.” –Terry Pratchett. Humor is another way to peel back the lies.

    When withdrawing, when walking away, it is the exercise of power. The few men on the edge, or beyond have their place, but people need each other. By moving away, you will compel them to your visions. A leader will always find followers, but he must be willing to be worthy of them. A source of power, and his burden to bear; his cross to carry.

    Who can truly say he has no chains? The best we can do is choose them with care, and carry them with honor. Bonds of blood, bonds of friendship, bonds of matrimony; bound by our duty are we all. Anyone saying otherwise is lying, or he is running from his life.

    The Shadowed Knight

    • “Who can truly say he has no chains? The best we can do is choose them with care…”

      That’s part of my point.

      No one can Truly “opt out” anymore.

      So one should choose one’s fetters deliberately.

      And I’m trying to help men make an informed decision.

      • As long as you are a man on this Earth…you can’t “opt out” of the game. No matter what route you take…you are going to have to toil and sweat in it. Ultimately you’ll die from it. Some guys do physical labor, some sit in ivory towers constructing thoughts, others do both. I think the most fulfilling life is when you do both.

        The only true way to opt out…is when God allows you to be taken away from this place.

  5. docillusion Says:

    My true joy comes from utility, which is why I find it so strange that many on the manosphere advocate against it. After 13 hours of work, I go home and try to relax and have a few drinks. Then I feel lazy and get up and water/prune vegetable plants. Have another drink. Go check on all the animals and check oil/tire pressure on vehicles.

    Men are meant to do useful things. Too many men go for hedonism and cannot figure out why they feel empty and unfulfilled, or end up as addicts or on anti depressants. They are going against nature, and that never works out well.

    • God also gave us a day of rest for a reason.

      Go hard for 6 days and then take a day off. Unplug from the game as best you can…every man has to recharge the batteries.

      Problem is nowadays people want 6 days off and complain about 1 day of hard work.

  6. I think we can all agree…the most destructive men in history…were those whose only job was to “think”. Religious leaders, politicians, philosphophers…if they didn’t have a blue collar job they construct destructive ideas. Because they have no real world experience.

    A guy needs to be doing and thinking.

  7. That may be the problem with analogies, when I use them, they always seem so clear to me – then I get these quizzical looks from people, then start explaining myself – which in essence, destroys the beauty of an analogy.

    My opinion…it’s all about degrees of participation. What most “leaders” of anything expect is there will be “followers”. That’s how big things get done – there is one person (in the majority of cases, a Man) that has an idea, they spread that idea like a virus (in fact there is a book about 10 years old called the Idea Virus good read). At some point there is a tipping point (another good book) that creates momentum.

    I believe what I’m reading from your analogy, is when IDEAs, individual thinking, identified leaders, etc. then all you’re left with is a choice. It reminds me of the quote in Shawshank Redemption, when Andy Dephrane tells Red…”You either get busy living, or get busy dying”.

    I like the analogy – and really love the old 60’s movie with Rod Taylor.

    • “That may be the problem with analogies, when I use them, they always seem so clear to me – then I get these quizzical looks from people, then start explaining myself – which in essence, destroys the beauty of an analogy.”

      Sadly, I am compelled by circumstance to agree.

      “My opinion…it’s all about degrees of participation.”

      That is the crux of my point.

      The more men and women ascribe to certain philosophies, the more they become little more than manifestations of certain, extreme [almost to the point of parody] qualities.

      Hyper- masculine brutes; hyper-feminine simpletons.

      In brief, mere shadows of humanity

      Again, hence my analogy.

      “I like the analogy – and really love the old 60′s movie with Rod Taylor.”

      Thank you.

      And I’ll have to watch that film.

  8. I always had high hopes to change the world, but that was youthful optimism. When we moved back to our sleepy home town, the urge was even more powerful to wake that town up. We did manage that!

    It used to be a big music town in the 1970s, but since then had really stagnated into never-ending cover bands. If you had a band that didn’t play the same covers as every other band you would not get work. We had moved from Dallas, which had a huge budding original music scene in the very early 1990s.

    We opened a music venue where we would only hire original bands: no cover bands allowed. We couldn’t find any local ones (!!!) so we had to import them from Dallas, Austin, Lawrence, Wichita, etc.

    Our club was only open for a year, but we managed to encourage a bunch of local original band start-ups that are still around and playing today. Now our sleepy town is full original music bands getting plenty of steady gigs. We did this; it was a direct result of our venue.

    So, it can be done. I’m not sure if I will do it again, but I do have a really cool idea that I know would be highly successful. Just not sure if I want to come out of semi-retirement to work that hard, lol.

  9. On the vein of dichotomous thinking, have you considered the irony that you detest it so, yet readily establish two incongruent statuses of your own cognizance with alcohol? Or is it that experiencing the slope of descent allows a fuller exploration of the spectrum and helps to channel your creative energies?

    Despite whatever connections to mysticism you might feel, it would seem that if you do indeed tend to reach out to young men in search of answers (particularly from a spiritual lens), downplaying the elements of dependency in your frame might bolster the credibility of your guidance.

    • Baux,

      On the vein of dichotomous thinking, have you considered the irony that you detest it so, yet readily establish two incongruent statuses of your own cognizance with alcohol? Or is it that experiencing the slope of descent allows a fuller exploration of the spectrum and helps to channel your creative energies?

      I’m not certain I follow your questions.

      So, please indulge me here.

      I use drugs [alcohol is a drug, I do not delude myself in this] to place myself in a state between consciousness and unconsciousness while still affording me the ability to write.

      As I have an addictive personality [along with an aversion to prison], this is the least of the evils I can choose.

      Were I able to type during the phase between slumber and wakedness, I’d choose that.

      Alas [sincerely], that’s an impossibility.

      Despite whatever connections to mysticism you might feel, it would seem that if you do indeed tend to reach out to young men in search of answers (particularly from a spiritual lens), downplaying the elements of dependency in your frame might bolster the credibility of your guidance.

      You raise excellent points and I appreciate the civil manner in which you express them.

      Truly.

      I agree with you; that may bolster my credibility.

      But life has taught me placing my worst foot forward is usually more productive [in the long run].

      I’ve been at this game my entire life [publicly/blogging for 9 years, in and of itself].

      So I know the efficacy of it.

      I confess to having always been on a different level than most [read: nigh on all], so perhaps it’s due to my lack of significant peer involvement during my youth, but I discount the majority of those who do nothing but proclaim their “greatness” as posturing.

      If a man shows me his flaws, then I’m more willing to believe his strengths.

      [This attitude seems sorely lacking in the ‘sphere.]

      Thus, I do my best to straddle the chasm between lauding my own abilities and admitting my weaknesses.

      Perhaps I succeed; perhaps I fail.

      But that’s my intent.

      In conclusion, specifically regarding “credibility”:

      I chose Cassandra for a reason.

      The ‘sphere has already shown me my words fall on deaf ears more often than not [which is why I link as I do, showing my predictions].

      Therefore, I don’t trouble myself overly so with the concern.

      Thank you for your questions and input.

      They are appreciated greatly.

  10. “They are described as being smaller than modern humans, having shoulder-length curly hair, chins that ran to a point, large eyes, small ears, and small mouths with bright red thin lips.”
    Is it just me, or is it obvious that these are physical characteristics of women?

    • Paul,

      You are not alone in that.

      That was a major reason I chose the analogy.

      The more Feminism takes hold, the more feminized [mentally, emotionally and – it would seem- physically], its male followers become.

      While its female adherents seem to begin to drift toward masculine traits, though never really reaching them.

  11. Another thought I have, reading this post for the nth time.

    In looking at the Eloi and the Morlocks, I see two extremes of one coin. You could say Yin and Yang, but I’m not talking about some masculinity in women or vice versa. Rather, I point to a dichtomy that goes nearly wholly un-contested.

    That of the dumb jock and that of the effete but smart nerd.

    No one thinks that there is a third option, a smart man who can also kick butt.

    Like how men used to be.

    My father’s incredibly smart – but he’s also in great shape and looks as if he’s in his 50s when he is in fact nearly two decades older than that.

    I can’t believe how lucky I’ve been with my parents I’ve been given. Blessed.

    Truly.

    Wald

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