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One of the commonalities shared by we men in the ‘sphere is this:
A penchant for giving others more leeway in the context of errors than ourselves.
By which I mean:
We are far quicker to forgive others than ourselves.
Funny, that, considering many (if not most) are Christian.
And Christ said:
“Love others as you love yourselves.”
Note, He did not say:
“Love others more than you love yourselves.”
Women, in their infinite pragmatism, forgive themselves easily.
(Often, more than is warranted, in fact.
But that’s a tale for another day.)
While most men scourge themselves long after such corporal punishment is deserved.
Let alone useful.
All this leads me to advise:
Let it go.
Give yourself the gift of forgiveness.
Understand the man you are now is not at all the man you were then.
Realize the fellow that made those mistakes/errors in judgement/faulty decisions was killed.
Murdered by his folly.
So bury him.
Mourn his naïve passing.
And move onward.
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